Well, we are inching closer and closer to Christmas. I can't slow time. I can't stop it. Christmas will come and go next Thursday just like clockwork. Just that quickly, another first will be completed.
I have a new favorite Christmas song this year. It's called A Different Kind of Christmas. It's by Mark Schultz. You should totally give it a listen. It's fabulous. I'm thankful to have a relationship with Christ that affords me the opportunity to know that I haven't said "goodbye" to my family. I have simply had to say "see you later." There's a huge difference between the two.
But I digress. As we inch closer to Christmas, I find myself in a weird place. A place of no real emotions to feel. It's not that I'm avoiding them or stuffing them. It's just that for the first time in a really long time, I find myself completely void of ANY gut-wrenching, exhausting emotion. Oh how I'm thankful.
Am I "over" my grieving? LOL, no. Simply in a place of grace where I can have a few moments of nothingness. It's a fabulous feeling right now at this very moment. I'll take it.
I know grief will return. It doesn't subside that quickly. It waxes and wanes. With this lull, I wonder if the level of intensity will decrease? We shall see. But right now, in this moment, I will accept the nothingness and cherish it for the gift it is.
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